Feel of the Day.108

Many things to catch up on.
1. I have a gf
2. I've started clinical training for the med course
3. life sometimes sucks (oh wait, this is old news)

Basically, you know when you break something accidentally, say during a ball game, and you really regret it but you don't know how or why it happened? That's me. I'm still pondering on why things are the way they are and why i'm feeling the way i'm feeling. My support system has collapsed. I really have no where else to go. And the worst thing is, the only support i thought i had has now became one of the stressors. I just can't let go. No one really understands, not even if i explain 5 times; not unless you have the same shoes i have. Family is great, but can't open up to them; too risky; too touchy. Friends are but the shell above shell; nuff said. I feel like the closest friend i have now is Ig and blogspot. That is sad; even i know that. Had a tough friday aftera tough week. I am tired, really really tired. Can the octopus please leave me alone. I need rest; i need resolution; i need time to stand still just for a sec so i can breathe without dying in my mind. I need closure. I need hope. School is busy, stressful and sleepless. 4.30am starts is what i get for this term. sigh is what i moan every night, every day.

Cheerios,
alvin.k