Feel of the Day.41

Today is my birthday. Birthdays are meant to be fun, happy, fun-filled and joyous. Mine was all that...and more...trust me, this isn't gd. I am happy with fun, happy, fun-filled and joyous. I shall introduce a character into this post, the mole. The mole is a freaking annoying character. My birthday was perfect until he (for the purpose of this character, i'm just gonna make it a boy) showed up. Yea..When he's around, nothing gd happens. This is the mole, when he sees a glass half-filled with water he says "It's half empty", that's what im dealing with. When he sees a clear sky with the radiant sun, he says " Where's the clouds ?", i could go on, but i don't wanna. so that's the mole. One day, there would no longer be a mole in my immediate life, and i look forward to that day, i really do. You know what, i'm not asking for a lot, all i want is a simple, quiet peaceful day, without the Octopus, Cat and dog around and MOSTLY without the freaking mole. WHY ! WHY IS THE MOLE SOOOOOOOOOOO........*insert an unpleasant word*......sigh.

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Well, life isn't that perfect, and i guess i should accept that.

Anyways, i could go on and on and on and on about the mole but i won't, it just gets me angrier (not even sure if that's a legit word). haha oh wells *exhales*...

On to happier things, today i spent the day @ shoppo with 2 of my hs friends, we watched due date ! It's so funny ! haha fav quote "I puked on your wound" lol! check it out ! :D

Well, i really enjoyed the arvo @ shoppo, it was just chill and relaxing (i wonder why, oh that's right, maybe it's because the mole wasn't there). Really had a gd time catching up with my friends, y'all rock ! :)

After the nice outing, i got home and i had a run. It was a gd run. you know what, i wana try to run more these hols :) I think that's a challenge ! haha woooo ! let's hope today isn't the only day i run :P

You know what, *EMO ALERT*, sometimes i wish im back in the exam period, i truly do, at least i get the few hours of the day (after i fin my daily quota) to relax in total peace (well not total, but you know, it feels like total peace) and watch stargate and chill and not have to worry. Even if it's just a few hours, it's worth it, i know you may think that i'm crazy, wanting to go back to the stressful exam period, but that's the only time when the mole is at his lowest power and even though the octopus, cat and dogs are around, it's not so bad, in conclusion, i hate the mole (not the animal, but the character behind the mole. again, i'm using an animal as an illustration/metaphor etc etc and i mean the animal no harm :) animals rock ! :D ).

anywho, something else....I've started watching Boston Legal ! thanks to my awesome kak! you know who you are, give yourself a pat on the back ! :P

Alright, i wana end this post with a photo i took quite a while ago:

Can you see the few flies on the top and top right corner ?

can you see them stucked ?

Welcome to my life.

alvin.k

Feel of the Day.40

moody/sucky/strangle/fear/yell/express/sorrow/pain/yearn/feeling/release/song/emotion/cry/neutral/safe/letting go/farfetch/achieved/sunlight/breath/bus/hope/express/communication/people/smile/talk/express/look/search/smile/giggle/see/hope/sorrow/joy/laugh/smile/tired/

Happy Birthday//

alvin.k

Feel of the Day.39

It's a drizzly Sunday...i didn't know nature knew me that well.

Just before i officially start this post, i just wana say that this post will include some pretty nasty description of animals and all these are just metaphorical. I am an animal lover and i mean these animals no harm. I am simply using animals as an illustration to my post.
Again, i love animals, and i'm sry if this post offends you, i intend no harm.
Okay, the post begins :

Today, i'm gona tell you a story about octopuses, cats and dogs.
These three animals go hand in hand. They do. They may appear during the early days, or later days. When they do come, they are there to stay. Their initial presence feels...unknown, different, weird, questioning. You ask yourself "why are they here? Why can't they crash some other person's world?" but guess what, they are here/there to stay.

The octopus will use its four pairs of arms and try to detain you. you try to struggle your way out of its grasp, but often, your effort ends in total failure, with damage inflicted onto you as well.
That's Mr. Octopus.

Then, there's the pussy cat. "meow" is its common calls. Mr. pussy is all furry and cute and everything and usually he doesn't cause you harm. He's just being himself, licking his paw and what not. awwww...but sometime throughout your life, he'll change and become violent, he'll fury swipe (quoting pokemon :P) you till you bleed out, all out, until there's nothing life in the vessels in your body and you lie there, like a fat forsaken meatball. You don't know whats happening to you and you're there struggling, trying to figure out what's happening to you and again...you fail..miserably. The common outcome.

Lastly, there's Mr. woooof. The dog is there, waiting, with it's blood hound eyes, waiting to tear you apart. Thankfully he's being bound up by a chain, but every so often, the chain looses itself, i don't know why, you don't know why, but it happens, and then you have no where to go, you try to run, but for some reason you can't, and you just stand there....while the furious dog comes and devour you, you feeeel the pain, the freaking "is this really happening to me?!" kind of pain. The pain ends, thankfully, but things soon resumes its normal course, the dg locked up in chain once again, and you're there, again, wondering around and the cycle begins once again. Fear is your companion in this realm.

There you have it, the Octopus, Cat and Dog. You may be confused reading my post and that's alright haha this post has beeen pretty bizzare and yeaaa. Thanks for reading it :P Once again, i just wana say that i didn't intend to verbally abuse any animals in this post, all the descriptions are just metaphorical/analogical/illustrative etcetcetc. I love animals :):)

I feeel like going on...ok i shall :)
It's pretty cold today, with the wind blowing strongly outside and the low temp. brrrr...
I plan to go for a run later, so im hoping that the weather will change for the better :)
Ohohooh, SOCIAL NETWORK ! I watched it the other day and it was a blast ! :) The storyline was gd, the whole plot was portrayed in a very unique way and yeaa gd show :)
you know what, i feel like i have done this before haha, commenting about social network lol anywho, i just had a quick browse through youtube for movie trailers and there are so many awesome movies coming out, when i get back to msia, imma watch a movie everyday ! LOL
Due date, green lanturn, the mechanic, source code...all awesome movies !!! :) According to the trailers anyways hehee

It's my birthday in 2 days, doesn't feel like it though. I feel like it's gona be a usual day. a normal day, with the usual trials and errors. Well, i guess we can never know what the future is like until it becomes the present. I shall look forward to that day and embrace whatever the day has to offer.

The rain has stopped, i think :P Time for a run! Thanks for reading today's post, i wish you a wonderful and splendid day :) Ta !

alvin.k

Feel of the Day.38

*the alarms goin...
*snooze...
*alarms goin again...
*snooze...
*fone alarm goes...
*snooze...
*and now i'm here :P

Had a very gd sleep last nite :) refreshing and recharging! You know what i realised, fb is a gun. I mean that in many ways..yess it's a gun in a sense that it's AWESOME ! haha i've been reconnected to many friends through and it has convenienced me in many ways (photo viewing, event making, wall SPAMS :P etc...). I'm sure everyone who has an account would agree with me. However, there is another side to fb that is "not so nice". [For the record, i'm not saying that fb is evil or anything, i love fb :) but this is just one aspect of it that sorta makes me feel glooomy from time to time.] haha i have no idea what i'm saying haha. i was gonna go for, a gun being a weapon, could be used for gd (like cops) and for bad (like robbers) haha, i think i failed haha but just bear with me hehe. Alright, moving on. Ever heard of polymorphism? It means "when two or more clearly different phenotype (observable characteristics) exist in the same population of a species" - quoted from wikipedia. Just focus on the word "different". Just as polymorphism is true in the biological/genetics realm, there is something really similar in reality, i don't know what to call it, it is many things, different factors all mushed up into one big PAININTHEBUTT. I shall call it "The PITB". It is something that is extremely annoying and sometimes feels worse than a stab to the heart (p.s. i've never been stabbed in the heart, physically, so i guess i don't really know what i'm talking about, but you know what i mean). Anyways, back to the point. If you read my previous post about beans (yes, you read right, beans), this post is sorta similar in nature :P it's just my way of ranting/yelling etc. Anywho, PITB is like the different variety of beans (again referencing to me previous post), like polymorphism in the bioscience discipline. Some ppl experience an enormous amount of freedom, and they're indifferent about it. Some ppl experience a moderate amount of freedom and "mehh.." they say, and then there's me. This is PITB. Usually PITB is hard enough when you're a 2nd yr student @ uni but with FB, it's that much harder. Now, again, for the record, i'm not saying that fb is evil or anything, if anything, fb is awesome! It's just that PITB is an issue that is exacerbated by the use of fb. You wake up one morning, boot up your com and then what do u see ? all the things that people do, funfunfun, gd for them. yea..gd for them. Sometimes its hard you know, it's in our nature to want more...more..and moree. But when we see how much "more" others have, it's worse. "one day" i say...hoping that the day will come when PITB wouldn't be in my face.

Ahhhh whatever...that's all. rant finished. haha. i don't know if what i talked about made sense but yeaa haha i'm hoping it does :P Well ppl, have an awesome break :) It's a fairly nice day out there today, make the most of it :)

alvin.k

Feel of the Day.37

*yawns*

Today turned out to be a pretty gd day :) Today Melb Uni's biomed student society had their post-exam bbq celeb and i crashed it for a bit before heading to my combined birthday dinner (with a biomed friend :P). The bbq was gd, as usual, sausages, soft drinks and also gettin locked in med basement.....WOWOWOOWWO rewind ! haha yeap you heard (read) right, a few of us got locked in the basement lol we even had to call security to let us out ahaa a great start to the day :) The dinner was held @ the MaxBarRestaurant in Hardware lane, off lonsdale st. The food was pretty gd, tasty and just the right amount :) I had gelato as my choice of desert and OMNOMNOM ! :P

It was a great time catching up after exams and there was laughter during every sec of the dinner :) I also really like all of the presents that i received tonight, thanks guyssss ! :)

When there's sunlight, there's also darkness, u know where i'm goin with this...
imma just say it, i feeel jealous, i do. People get to do things later at night but i have to come home. It's been like this from the start (*flashback*my heart swells up as i see my friends cycle to [insert name]'s house). Some day....it's gonna be different, perhaps, hopefully...

Anyways, that's all for today! My eyes are half shut hehe i should get to bed. Good night everyone ! :)

alvin.k

Feel of the Day.36

Gd morning world wide web !

Gd sleeep last nite! hopefully my stuffed up bioclock will re-adjust itself today :) fingers crossed !
As i woke up this chilly morning, one thought came to mind, beans! haha i know it's sorta weird but it's something that i actually thought about for quite a bit. Beans come in various sizes, shape, color, texture. mine's not all the flashy. i flick open facebook (btw, speaking of fb, i watched social network yesterday and it was gd! nice story and the film was portrayed in a very unique, elegant way :P haha go watch it !) and i see ppl's status saying things that they did lastnite and how awesome it was etcetcetc..gd for them. It's sometimes hard that i can't sprout like other beans do. It's like Day 1, alright, the outer layer of coating starts to break but it just stalls afterwards, nothing happens, while other beans start to shed the whole wrinkly exterior and start to show some leaves in the middle groove. I mean, i'm not asking much, i'm ust asking for a faster growth rate, not even, i'm simply wanting to shed the exterior and perhaps show a tiny weeebit of leaves ? I know the day will come when i'll be at the place, but by then, everyone would have already given birth to more beans, and many of those beans might even have started sprouting themselves. Am i exagerrating ? i don't know. i know i should just be thankful and grateful that i am a growing bean and i have my own soil and nutrients and w/e i need to grow. I should be grateful. but why am i not ? well, i'm not totally ungrateful, but this feeling of wanting more is defs > than gratefulness. This is foolishness i know, i shouldn't feel this way.

Life is full of beans and beans and more beans, some grow faster, some slower, some stalls for a bit. I guess i just need to remind myself, while my bean is strugling to sprout, there are other beans out there that's not even on soil, not even on grow-able anything, the're just on concrete, waiting to be trampled on by bypassers. Some are harvested for nutrients before they even shed their outer exterior and end up in the G.I. Tract of some multicellular eukaryotic super-organism. haiii....and some just rot, they don't even have the chance to grumble, they just exist and then they don't. nowww...i look at myself, how pathetic i am for complaining, i am an EXISTING bean ! i am GROWING, i have SOIL and i'm NOT ROTTEN. I need to be thankful and grateful, i need to see things on the positive side, i need to see the light, not the shadow, i need hope. i need an agonist. i do...Lord help me.

That is all i wana say. If you're someone who has actually read till this point, i thank you, i prob won't know when you read this, or who you are, but i thank you. It's nice to "know" that someone's listening to you :)

For all those who has a break coming up, enjoy it, treasure every moment of it, because it's here today, and gone tomorrow, in a flash. Live life to the full, with no regrets and be grateful for what you have (note to self !!!!!! :P). That's all, Thank you once again for reading.

Cheers,

alvin.k

Feel of the Day.35

Hey y'all !

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRR ! OMGSH ! 2 more proper exam periods and im freeee ! from undergrad that is :P

Mann, it sure feels weird to be exam-free haha its like that feeling when you've been jogging on a treadmill for 30mins and then you stop suddenly....legs feel weird ? yea that's the feelin haha

i'll be goin back to msia soon, cant wait !!! FOOOOD ! OMNOMNOM ! :P
and the shoppin haha CHEAP!
so that concludes my 2nd yr @ uni. mannn time flies...i rmb in first yr when a friend of my calculated the day of the exact 1/10 of our course and said it, i was like dudeeeeeeeee....haha but seriously uni is a FAST train, it's here today, gone tmr, true story bro.
hopefully next sem won't be too hard, fingers crossed, it's gonna be third yr and the final yr, and we all know how the final yr's like..BUSYBUSYBUSY..mehhhh, it's still ages away :P

Speaking of 3rd yr, i decided that imma major in microbiology & Immunology :) was gonna do anat but mehhh i find that i like stuydin microbes more hehe me and my micro-friends ! WOOO xD

oooo...before i forget, one of the weird things that happened during SWOTVAC was that my sleepin pattern went completely CRAZY ! haha during the last 4 days before the final paper, my sleepin time was 7pm-1/2am..LOL seriously it was maddd, it's been 2 days since the final exam now and i'm still feelin it :P after dinner, the drowsy in me kicks in *SNORES* haha but mehhhh it's the hols now, i'll just sleeep the whole day (Y) hehe..

Anywho, im sleepy zZzZzZ..hope everyones gona have a blast during the summer break ! CHEERS !!! :D

alvin.k